Chapter 1: The Struggle Within

Depression compels me to write, yet it simultaneously whispers that I have nothing of value to share.

When did you come to terms with your depression? It’s a curious admission, isn’t it? Accepting depression can sometimes ease its burdens.

I used to believe that once I ended my marriage with my abusive ex-husband, my troubles would vanish. I thought my lethargy was solely due to his presence, making me feel trapped and defeated.

I wish I could escape this feeling of hopelessness. I long for the days when I could enjoy meals daily instead of resorting to eating every few days. I yearn for restful nights where sleep comes easily as soon as my head hits the pillow. I wish I could consistently find joy in activities that once delighted me.

Yet here I am, still grappling with depression and anxiety over issues beyond my control. Nonetheless, I’ve discovered that I can reclaim some power over my depression, making it easier to breathe.

The word "could" is transforming into "can," and I realize that I can gain some control over my mental health.

I no longer spend entire days in bed. Instead, I utilize meditation apps to take daily naps. It’s true! When life becomes overwhelming, I know I’ll retreat to bed at some point, but rather than succumb to negative thoughts, I choose uplifting and inspiring meditations. Engaging with gamma brainwave meditations at the right frequency can shift your mood profoundly.

I've been rewiring my mindset through meditation, particularly using the Sinctuition App.

And to clarify—this isn't a promotional message. I simply wanted to share what has worked for me.

However, it’s not just the app that has driven my transformation. With extensive EMDR (Eye Movement Desensitization and Reprocessing), Cognitive Behavioral Therapy, medication, and an open mindset ready to embrace anything, I have evolved.

I’m deliberately choosing to fill my mind with positivity rather than the self-destructive beliefs that once consumed me. I acknowledge my depression and recognize that I can decide whether to alleviate my symptoms or let the negative thoughts engulf me.

Section 1.1: Embracing Positivity

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You can be sure that I’ll unwind with some meditation after finishing this writing. Once I am done, I’ll edit it for publication.

My children are old enough to understand that their mother needs her meditation breaks. This practice allows me to be a healthier and more present parent.

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Chapter 2: The Power of Sharing Your Journey

The first video titled "8 Lies Depressed People Believe" highlights common misconceptions that can hinder recovery. It encourages viewers to challenge these beliefs and embrace a healthier mindset.

The second video, "Sabrina Benaim - Explaining My Depression to My Mother," provides a poignant narrative of communicating the complexities of depression to loved ones, fostering understanding and empathy.